Who do You think you are?
I’m realizing as I ask myself this question, “Who do I think I am?” I have been viewing myself as something “trying” to get their life together, “trying” to heal, “trying” to feel ok, “trying” to be creative, “trying” to be confident…
I’d get a glimpse of this person I was “trying” to be - mostly if I were in a good mood or if things were going well externally. Something externally had to validate whether or not this was working or I was who I wanted to be, right?
Maybe I felt like I couldn’t fully “own” who I am becoming until I completely felt it - inside & out, but isn’t feeling it deep in my Soul enought?
The threshold, the portal is taking the intentional action that is aligned with that vision and understanding of my core essence and trusting it’s enough. That’s it.
When we are transforming, shifting our self identity we don’t have to have the perfect wardrobe or home space that reflects what we believe that archetype to be. We can trust the external elements (connections, style, career, opportunities, finances, experiences, creativity, etc, etc) will shift over time the more we show up as our true Soul essence.
But those current external elements still show and reflect our true Soul essence, even if it isn’t perfect, even if it’s still a work in progress (even if we are in the process of evolution).
This feeling that we’re a a “work in progress”, we’re still “trying”, we aren’t a “final product” yet holds us back from showing up in the very way that our authentic self is asking for. We don’t need permission externally to say it’s ok to begin owning this deeper understanding of ourselves.
If I want to create music, but I get hung up about the fact that I don’t read music, or I don’t have all the equipment I want, or what would people think - it’s coming from a self belief that “I’m not creative”, “I can’t make music” or “I don’t make music”.
Those are shadows. Distortions. It’s a bullshit narrative that allows me to release the responsibility of doing what it takes to become the person I know that I am. To fully express our Soul in a way that resonates with us on a more meaningful level. Mainly because we don’t know what will happen.
We will fully embody our individual power. That is what will happen.
Now back to the example…If I look at the alternative to this limiting self concept I find that “I am creative, resourceful, I have taste, I know what sounds good, I know how to create a vibe, and I know it’s fun to create music”.
The pressure, the judgement fades. It opens my mind and heart to new options and possibilities around the expression that is calling to me.
So now the question is - if I reframe how I see myself in relation to (insert method of creative expression here)…what would I do? How would I approach this invitation, situation, opportunity to play/experiment/express what’s begging to come out of me?
Maybe I learn something simple on the equipment I do have
Maybe I get inspired by a song that I love and replicate it to the best of my abilities. An opportunity to understand how it was created.
Maybe I let myself experiment and play - letting it potentially suck
Maybe I ask what is really trying to be expressed through me - what type of vibe am I interesting in not only creating, but also experiencing?
How much of our life are we missing out on because we are so focused on staying in our lane? Bound and determined to up-keep this sense of self that we don’t even like or resonate with anymore?
Try it for yourself: Who do you think you really are? What is a challenge or tension that you’re currently facing? Maybe it’s something that is asking to be expressed, but you wonder if it’s your place to do so. How is your current self concept creating a narrow view of how much power you actually have? How would you engage with this tension if you trusted that your understanding of your true core essence was enough?
